Sunday, May 24, 2009

another one of those days,

melb is losing its novelty.
sure i've come to love it for what it is,
but it still doesn't feel right somehow.

i nak balik la.

whoever said the grass was greener on the other side,
should be shot in the head.

: /

Friday, May 22, 2009

dancedance.

its 3, on most nights, i'll be fast asleep.

right now, i'm not the least bit tired.
what is wrong with me?

at this hour, the floodgates of ideas, the filters fail to function.

~~~~
i enjoy this degree of anoymity i have.
the circle of friends i have here in melbourne, i would like to think know nothing about this space of mine. (and if you do, please do not aknowledge it, please and thank you)
i owe no one apologies, no obligatory thank yous, no need to address a particular person for their graciousness.
not confined to fitting in the mould they have formed of me.
i am enjoying the freedom of being unpredictable with my writing.

ipod is on shuffle, from radiohead, mraz plays, and then we've got lupe rhyming my night away.

i've not experienced such freedom in a while. now to bask in it.

goodnight world : )

Thursday, May 21, 2009

go on,

write your own story.

babysteps, babysteps, you'll get there : )

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Alarm Bells!

This escaped my attention last year.

This is what you get from mainstream newspapers,

Sarawak to Build 12 Dams to meet Future Power Needs
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/7/23/nation/21894319&sec=nation

This, they choose to ignore,

‘Green’ dams hasten rape of Borneo forests
http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/asia/article5908207.ece

I'm not the most eloquent of speechwriters, so I can only go 'wthwthwthwth'.

I am aware of environmentalists and their 'extremists' predispositions,
but,
12 dams in Sarawak when you've made a white elephant out of the Bakun Dam,
no weaker excuse than this to make more money for yourself Taib.

How tempting it is, to go 'screw you and your cronies', but I shall restrain.
breathjennybreathe.

Oh, I only realised this 3 days ago whilst researching for my paper,
The great divide between West and East Malaysians.
This I will save for another day.

~~~

It just hit me,

My dad once told me of how a friend of his was blacklisted from entering Sarawak, because of how he was a anti-logging protester/activist of sorts,

If I recall correctly, it came as a warning from my claims as a 15 year old, that one day, 'I'm going to save the forests of Borneo'.

ahh, the naivety in my speech.

Its never too late.


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Tree Hugger Wannabe?

'Biodiversity of rainforests should not be compared with oil palm plantations says palm oil council chief

Dr. Yusof Basiron, the controversial CEO of the Malaysian Palm Oil Council (MPOC), blogs about the sustainability of palm oil. '

Basiron's comments are noteworthy because until now he has maintained that oil palm plantations are "planted forests" rather than an industrial crop.
MongaBay.com

Delusional.

Saturday, May 09, 2009

in a flash.

(to be read in order, beginning two posts down ' since we're here anyway'.

it was good while it lasted.

now that I'm 13 days closer to a 2500 words essay deadline,
zero resources, surface level knowledge of the development issue,
a late desperate email to my lecturer,
an econometrics assignment due next thursday,
on lectures where my eyes glazed over and vision blurred,
a microeconomics assignment the week after,
again, this time on lectures on where I wasn't even there for!

am i screwed?

i am hyperventilating.

Oh God help!

c'mon jenny, you can do this!

p.s. thanks for the pep talk lync : )

so hopeful.

Tough weeks make the fantastic results worth it and I'm positive you'll pull through!
-MitheleC-
...in the end when we look back it will one helluva ride
-mhong-
You're not alone.
-FarahPhat-
ahh, friends : )
maybe earth isn't such a 'cold dead place' after all eh Rafah?


we're all in this together.
*coughhackcough* HSchoolMusical.

since we're here anyway.

I gave returnee's a miss,

Too drained from the week,

Spent the entire morning with the sister who didn't leave for home,
yumm casa ibera chorizo thing, almond croissant and really good soy latte : )

accusations of being geographically challenged, i was right!there was a bicycle shop along lygon,
being each other's harshest fashion critics,
planning her 'to get' list when she returns,
strategic rationing of our incoming supply of gula melaka biscuits from ipoh,
dodging people we didn't feel like speaking too,
'don't make eye contact', walk straight ahead motions.

ahhh, what a day.

Friday, May 08, 2009

new season.

so,

what happens next?

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

que sera sera.

This has probably got to be the worst week of my life.

Monday, May 04, 2009

oh no.

attempting to redo an entire project which involved many sleepless nights in 8 hours is sheer madness.

God help.